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My weight has been fluctuating between 70.5kg to 71.9kg, early morning weight being 70.9kg.

That is an achievement, or so I'd like to think since I was at 71.5kg for the longest time.

Foodwise, I still refrain from rice and any kind of noodles.

I feel guilty having curry puffs, so I don't.

My main carbo take I guess would be my maid's cekodok sayur and the occasional murtabak.

I usually have plain water for Iftar. Actually, I don't think I eat much, just indulging my sweet tooth with my own made chocolate chip cookies.

My observation during this phase is :

If I eat late at night say 9pm onwards, for sure I will put on 500gms the next morning.

My knees are a bit wobbly with this weight loss. Is there calcium loss as well??

I don't feel fit, which makes the need to exercise a must.

At 71kg, I just need another 6kg to go. But oh! I need to load first in R2!!!

Unstable Stabilization

Morning weigh-in 71.4kg.

As of yesterday evening, I was 70.9kg.

Usually my end of day weight is 71.4kg.

Such excitement, NOT!

I think I am just fed-up with things. Not enough pages in this blog to tell my predicament. Need to simplify my life.

Stabilization - Not In the Mood

What's new about my weight? I seem to be maintaining at 71.5kg, lowest was 71.1kg and on a day when I had a late night 10pm it was chicken soup, I shot up to 72.4kg.

Well no more late night eating out then. Buka puasa is typically chicken or fish, salad and some form of kuih, my favorites are usually kuih lompang (or more commonly known as kuih kasui), kuih kelepung (or more commonly known as buah Melaka) and an occasional curry puff or popiah goreng. I believe the ACV has helped me tremendously in maintaining my new weight coupled with the fact that my sahur is usually an apple or just water and coffee with milk.

And yes, people, I have indulged in the much craved Nescafe Tarik. Now that I have had it, I don't want it anymore.

Last Saturday, MrM's brothers and families converged at our house for buka puasa. What a feast. I had two pieces of ayam percik, one cup of very sweet cendol Kuala Pilah, one ekor ikan senangin, one curry puff and a palmful of mee goreng. I had expected my weight to shoot up to 73kg for sure but turns out next morning I was 71.9kg before toilet business. Funny this diet.

MrM has been hovering between 81 to 82.5kg depending on what he ate. He has been rather liberal with his food intake compared to me. And he refuses to take ACV because he says the smell makes him want to puke. But I guess he has a faster metabolic rate compared to mine. After 4 kids, my challenge is to lose the pouch that came with the caesarean. He does not have a pouch and his stomach is as smooth and flat as Harith's cheeks. Ok ok I exaggerate but you get the drift.

I think fasting helps the weight maintenance. Another challenge will be after fasting month and normal eating resumes. By normal I mean the three meals a day normal. Not normal eating like I used to.

Work front I have been busy as usual. Tough when I have to work and not be a Tai Tai....I am so not in the mood now with work. But then that is a different entry. I have to drive myself more than driving my team towards results.

Nothing Much to Update

My morning weight has been fluctuating between 71.5kg to 71.7kg, depending on how much I eat, I guess, for buka puasa. Not disciplined as my friends are, and not exploring recipes that is health conscious. I have been so busy and today, almost lost my temper with one of my staff. Sometimes I wish I am a Madam Tai Tai, thinking of the next Tod's D Bag Bauletto I want to add to my collection instead of cracking my head on the risk insights that needed to accompany the company's performance reporting. I am getting all sorts of demands from every business and with two staff on maternity leave, I don't have enough hands to address everything.

I told MrM that some of the wives of pilots in RK seem to have it all. Big houses, fancy cars, time to make themselves beautiful, time with kids, while I have to slog this routine at work and make sacrifices. Not that I am ungrateful for the lot in my life but at times like this, the thought of having a Tai Tai life have crossed my mind more often than not.

And at times like this too I noticed that my diet goes awry. I thought of starting the diet again in the last week of September and this time, I want to get to 65kg minimum. Anything below that would be a bonus. That will bring me to my weight at 17 years old, starving in good ol' Texas surviving on soft batch cookies.

Stabilization Dayb3

Morning weigh in

Me : 71.9kg
MrM : 82.3kg

Breaking of fast indulgence :

Three pieces of murtabak Singapura
Buah melaka
One piece of chicken asam from yesterday
Small slices of cekodok
One boiled egg and cucumber mixed in kuah kacang (sugar laden for sure)

Two dose of ACV and rooibos tea two huge cups. And water, lots of it.

I am happy with my weight maintenance so far, but then again I need to lose another 7kg at least in R2. MrM says if I do, he may not recognize his wife anymore, ha ha!!!

Stabilization Day 2 - Suffering the Consequences

Morning weigh in
Me : 72kg. PS after major disposal I am 71.3kg.
MrM : 83kg

Let me tell you why.

After not eating rice for a good 40 days, I indulged two tablespoons of rice. And a small bowl of mee goreng. Two pieces of chicken from the asam pedas, two of my sister's telur itik masak lemak, three pieces of my kuih pandan bakar, two three pieces of cut pineapple, two tahu sumbat, what can I say? Macam loading instead of stabilization.

I noticed that having rice after so long of not having rice, my upper abdomen is the first to feel the effects i.e. Becomes thicker, of course.

I will refrain from rice. After all that dieting, I certainly can do without rice. Yesterday was an irrational exuberance, to borrow a term used by Alan Greenspan to describe the state of capital markets prior to the financial crisis.

In reading Arlin's, MDS, and Jai's blogs, they have been so disciplined with the Maintenance protocol, whereas I have been indulging liberally, just avoiding starch mainly and a bit too frequent indulgence of kuih kuih bazaar Ramadhan.

This is indeed a wake-up call to change my attitude towards food. Enough is enough.